miss korangg :'(

nehh sumee ex boyf akue ,

*sorie sbb ade yg tade kad siny , akue tade picaa korang laah .

btw , akue just naa korangg tao , syg akue kad korang taa penaa berubaah even siked pon .

taa kesah ahh bnyk mane korangg sakedkan aty akue , akue takan lupekan korang .

sebab korang penaa jady sebahagian dary edop akue .

ape yg pena kite buad sameSAME dulue akue akan engad sampay bileBILE :'(

AKUE RENDUE SGT KAD KORANGG !!!

even pic korang tade kad siny , name korang still dlm haty akue .

with love ,

qie :'D

awww , segannye ! :D

ahha , segannye douhhh !

tady pegy hangg with cera and ekaa .

then as usual laah , pegy KITARO .

u know what time tengah sedapSEDAP lunch ,

ade geng budaak photoghraphy lepak depan meja kitorang .

one of the photoghrapher , asek pandang jea akue .

sampay akue jady taa selese ouhh .

then tetibe dea kuwa kan BLACKBERRY dea .

dea hala kan fune dea kad akue ,

tekejod douhh .

dlm haty akue ckp , * pahal mamad neeh .

haha , 

akue pon pndang ahh BB dea uhh ,

haha , tegelak akue bace ape yg ade kad BB dea uhh .

dea tnjok kad akue one themes ,

kad themes uh tules " awak nak tak jadi awek saya ? "

perghhh , segann siottt !

akue teros tegelak and pandang tempad laen .

then , mamad toe klua kan camera dea ,

slambe wehh amek gamba akue , grrr !

if satue shoot tape lagy , bnyak pulaak .

mentangMENTANG akue diam .

haishh , sabaa jelaa .

dea tnye akue naa taa jady model dea , dgn muke blur akue ckp ,

model ? model ape laak nehh .

then dea ckp , model ntok photoghraphy ktorang laah .

haha , dea ajak photoshoot depan pavi .

memang taak laah kan !

haha , lastly dea mntaak numb .

akue puwn bagy jelaa . plus , tengah single kan :)

hee , after bagy numb akue teros blah .

lime langkah akue grak dary ctoe , dea daah call .

haha , pelikk akue .

pape pon , nice to know you SYED ISKANDAR :))

haha , ape kene budaa nehh ?

tetibe IM akue ,

mintaak jady adeq angkad .

fine , tape laah .

naa jadykan akue pet sys dea jea .

then daa lame siked start panggel akue syg pulaak .

apehal budaak nehh ,

blur sekejap .

then mntak number and suroh akue call dea petang kang .

akue ckp tade kedid , then dea ckp , gy ah topap . topap ntok dea skaly , WTH ?

HAHHAA ,

pastoe tetibe anta lyrics nehh kad akue ,

The moment I met you
Happiness filled my heart
I want to always be with you
To never be apart
We've been through a lot
But we've stuck through
It's almost been a year
That I've spent with you
And no matter what happens
I will always love you
You're my heaven on earth
You mean everything to me
You're the love of my life
We were always meant to be
I see my future in your eyes
And I see hope in the skies
I'll be with you forever
We will always be together.

hahah , koe ny daah knpe derr =,="

yeahhh , i'm quit :)

yeahhh ! at last , i'm quit my job :)

sorry miss and boss ,

hahaha .

today ramay pulaak ajakk hangg ,

then rase malas naa gy keje ,

so i amek kputusan naa brenty .

plus , sch naa bukak daa .

i'm gonna be a SMKPM senior laaah !

taa saabaa nehh , hahah :D

meed y'all yaa friends .

suchh a great dayy :)

haha , hari yg sgt memenadkan ,

bangun pagy terus gerak PJ ,

mane lagy ? umaah makngah laah kan . .

haha , then straight to international science centre ,

pegy tengokk all the dinosaur ,

haha , greatt ! its alive . menakodkan ! :D

after that , pegy OU pulakk . haishh .

haha , agak penadd . tapy tape , naa tengukk muvee punye pasal , pegy laah jugaak en .

ktorang naa pegy tengokk HANTU KAK LIMAH BALIK RUMAH ,

cite start 5.30 , ktorang sampay OU pukol 3 ,

so , ade lagy 2 jam lebeh .

hee , jalanJALAN dulue dlm OU ,

cuti mate tengok boys kad sane .

awww , sgt comel :))

hahahhaa , then perod sudaa buad consert pulakk , lague BUNKFACE lagy toe aww .

haha , so pegy KFC , makan dulue :)

then , daah kenyangg , pegy pulaak capture ,

hee , christmast tree ade lagy toe yg best capture toe .

haha , sedar taa sedar , daah 5.10 ,

so , masok cinema , tggu cite start . agakk bebulu !

banyak gylee iklan , haa .

and lastly , the story is begin ...

hahaha , cam setann !

bodoBODO jeaa , mmg tegelak mcm sakai ahh dlm cinema uhh .

hee , mmg best sangat ! agakk penadd , balek teros tydoe :))

hahahhahah :D

                                                      

naak jugaakk :'(

kadangKADANG ade jugaak rase JEALOUS stiap kali tengok couplesCOUPLES ,

walk together , hold each other hands , hugging laah sumee .

haisshh =,="

naak jugaak mcm toe :'(

agaknye , bile laah yg bulee dapad someone yg betolBETOL sayang akue eh ?

naak jugaak cam girls laen ,

ade boyfie , looks sweet sgt when together .

god , i want that happiness moment too :((

我爱你 :((

我爱你洙了. 

我不想失去你 . 

我要你永远在我身边，

我所有文字的时间 . 

因为当你停止发短信我，

我会受到影响，

因为我真的很想念你 . 

请不要离开我憋，

我需要你直到永远！

;'(

suchh a great christmast , hangg with my lesbiyy tieqah and my hunny adila :)

awww , SERONOK sgt !

dapad jugee hangg semalam dgn lesbieyyLESBIEYY i .

hahaha ,

best pegy jalanJALAN dgn korang ,

shisha , smoke and all that .

rase puas sgt ! plus , lepak dgn "MAMAT ELMO "

yg agakk mereng + sukee buadd orangg geram uhh .

*opps ! sorie adilla .

but honestly , jealous ouhh tengokk korangg :'D

i wish i can get someone like him one day , haha .

korangg MANES sgt ouhh .

hahaha ,

btw tieqah , you engad taa MAT REMPIT yg ngorad kite toe .

bodohh kan , bolehh pulakk ngorad then ckp cmnehh " alamak awak ! sape name ? "

haha , taa penaa i dengaa orangg ngorad cmtoe , tengahTENGAH jalan plakk toe ,

hahaha , B O D OH =,="

yg mamat lagy sorang toe tape lagy , just ckp " hye sweet "

sopan laa jugee en , sedap gak telinge nehh naa denga dea panggel i cmtoe , 

taa mcm MAT REMPIT toe , buadd tekejodd jea . haha .

papepon , thanks korang :) 

i had so much fun with y'all :))

pagyPAGY daah ade bnde yg buadd akue menyirap , grrr !

bency betol laah if bnde daa plan then taa jady !

aduhhh , 

lastLAST minute cancel mmg cam HARAM laah kan .

panas pulaak akue ,

haishh ,

tapeTAPE , kite tggu pukol 11 kang ape keputusannye .

hope jady ahh ,

taa sabaa mao karok dgn ADILA LIU'CIA , TIEQAH CASANDRA ,

CERA , NANA and photoshoot DGN muhizee raw yaww toe douhh !

:'(

bieyy ohhh bieyy :)

yeahh b , to me you're perfect .

even bb ckp , care b bnyk mengigadkan bb tentang dea ,

sokeyh b , bb okayy jea .

b taa perlu naa ubah apeAPE .

care b toe yg daa buadd bb tepikad tahuu ?

so if b ubah nanty , bb takod bnde akn jady laen ouhh .

so , taa perlu ehh syg :)

btw , thanks coz start to call me bb again ,

bb rendue gyle naa dengaa b panggel bb cmtoe ouhh .

hee , thanks yee b .

bb pegangg kateKATE b smalam toe , engad tao .

jangan mungker janji sudaa lahh yee .

hehe :D

once upon a time :)

once , he's the one that stole my heart ,

meor muhd hidayat :)

takpe laah , dapad gamba awak cmny pon daa cukop dary saye langsong tade gamba awak kan .

just god know haw much i miss you right now , haishh .

even u hurt me a lot , you're still the one that i can't forget until today .

hump . now i already found a person that absolutely behave like you .

and its was him .

tengku denish haikal <3

care dea ckp , care dea gelak sume ,

sebijik mcm awak ,

dea bnyk persamaan dgn awak ,

alhamdulillah , saye jumpe pengganty awak .

and saye harap ,

lepas saye kehilangan awak ,

saye takkan kehilangan dea pulakk ,

cukop laah awak jea yg tggal kan saye .

tapy dea , jangan yee denish ?

:'D

i dream of you lastnyte bieyy :'D

 

OMG , i dream of him lastnight .

it was the most great dream i ever had .

god , can you continue the dream tomorroW night .

i still wanna know what happen between me and him after that .

if can , i don't wanna let him go and i really don't wanna lose him .

i always want him by my side ,

always and forever be mines till my last breath .

iloveyou capital D :)

grr ! bency betol laah =.="

damnly tension right now ,

kak lynn daa brenty keje ,

now i'm alone ,

then smalam dapad partner barue , my bestie bell .

tup tup , today dea text dea pulaak naa brenty .

pantadd betol laah ,

barue sehary keje sudaa mao brenty .

haihhh ,

kelang kabodd cary partner ,

alhamdulillah ade kaka anys :))

tapy dea de hal pulaak , mao amek lesen kete .

aduhhhh , barue mao tersenyum sudaa sedehh balekk :'(

tape laah , kaka anys daa dapad gantykan akue after akue brenty nanty pon 

cukop daa even dea taa dapad teman akue time skang nehh .

i'll try to find another partner , would you like to accopmpany me ?

pleaseee ? :'((

god , its hard to forget you :'D

denish , denish , denish !

toe jelaa yg akue tao kan , taa habesHABES ,

adoii , ape you bagy kad i haa bieyy ?

sampay i susaa gylee naa lupekan you .

asekASEK pker you jeaa , 

haihh . you belum tentu lagy asek pker i kan .

haha , i SERONOK sgt stiap kali i on the fune with you ouhh .

you buadd i laughing  taa hentyHENTY sampay laah habes begayod .

adoii , penadd jugaak kadangKADANG layann otakk you yg masokk air toe .

ngeee :D

perangay you always mengigadkan i tentang someone ouhh ,

orang yg i penaa sayang satue mase dulue , cewahh ! haha .

akhernye , i jumpe gak pengganty dea . its you DENISH <3

hehehe , you ckp you milek i sepenuhnye kan ?

alhamdulillah , mmg toe yg i naa puwn .

hee , ILOVEYOUSOOMUCHH laahh :))

Howl - Love U MV (Boys Over Flowers OST2)

 tetibe telinge nehh rendu sgt naa denga lague nehh :))
rendue naa tguk BOF lagyy ouhh !

friends , i need you :'D

i need you ,

i need someone to share everything .

thanks god coz giving me such a great friends .

and i do love all my friends soo muchh .

they make my dayy , i happy when i with all my friends .

iloveyou FRIENDS :))

i was dissapointed again :'(

B R E A K !

oh god , the word come again .

the word that i hate most , the word that i don't wanna hear every time i couple with someone .

but why ! its come again , and its out of my mouth without thinking anything .

maybe its my life fate . but , i just tired of all that .

when can i get someone that can love me with all his heart sincerely .

grrr ! shitt ! :'(

i wish that i were you taylor swift :D

its gonna be the most great day ever if i can be the one who stand in front of you taylor lautner ,

haha , its one of my dream and what i wish to do .

i wish that i can hold your hand and hug you like that .

ohh god , u make me melt darling . 

hahahhaa :DD

wehhh , babunnn :DD

wehh wehh , tibeTIBE akue rase rendue douhh kad koe .

ntah pahal ahh pulakk en , akue pon tatao .

maybe sbub akue keje then mase kite ntok gadoGADO daah jady sangat terhad .

hahaha , after nehh akue naa gune kan mase toe betolBETOL :DD

*daah laah sengih toe , haha .

yeahh , alhamdulillah :)

ahha , alhamdulilah :) thanks to ALLAH , today is my pay day . balek jea keje tady tros bwak family pegy makanmakan . seronok sgtsgt ! hehe . tomorrow mmao shoppink dgn ibue pulaa . taa sabaanye :))

i HATE myself like hell !

i'm so insecure about everything

i think i'm ugly , fat and stupid and i just dont want to be around anymore 

         i always think that everyone would be better off without me 

and that i'm just in the way of everyone 

    i feel like my life is nothing and that i'm a useless 

        i just dont know what im doing in life anymore

 i feel lost and alone 

   i just dont know how much longer i can take being here 

          and always being hurt 

            i just wanna be someone else 

        i hate feeling this way and i dont know how to get over it

                 and overcome all my feelings

everyone says i'm pretty and cute but when i look in the mirror i see nothing but i    

 just only can see a fat ugly useless person there